Luceapher

Is it wrong and unhealthy to be more obssesed with fictional characters then with the going ons of your real life?

If it is, I think I need heavy medication.

Im still tore up that Chaz is "dead" ... thos of you who know what im talking about .. YAY thouse of you who dont. too bad.

Chaz was awasome and I will miss him, look for me creating a shrine in his honer. Cuz yeah .. loved him that much. *wants her smart assed, mohawked, assimite sexpot back. **looks at Kay.*

God im a loser.




Luce

P.S. you know what I hate?
when you cant find those droids your looking for.

.. It seems im moveing to Albqurque sooner then i planed and i will be up there around the 20th this month, I wont know when i will have computer acess again but my boyfriend is comeing to live with me in may so thats always a bonus. ^_^ Im pretty sure that there are some of you that dont care. But well I miss you guys anyway *cough Ran and Nick* and maybe when i get settled and adjusted to life we will start talking again.

I wish people could realize just how badly they hurtme. This may be just over the internet but there were people i consideered real friends and cared a grate deal for. And every time they would accuse me of something or not even act like they were considerate of my feelings It killed a little peice oinside of me.  Some people have just plane flat out stoped talking to me all together and that honistly broke my heart.. and i dont even get a real reason why. But there is someone in particuler that i loved talking to on a daily bassis untill all of our disscussions just turned in to bitter fights. So I told them .. i thought it would be good if our friendship came to a close .. (at least for a little while) .. Because every day that we faught i felt like i was going to just die of a utterly broken heart and I think i nearly did haveing to tell them that. But when i read thier journal after a month has gone by and checked out the post they made the day we faught ... it was a compleat slap in the face. Well I hope they have a happy life if they read this. Because now im not sure if that little while will even play a part in this.



I just want the hurting to go away.

But im giong to start drawing again now that my hands are healed i just have to figure out what i did with my Sketch diery. Good its good to have feeling in my fingers again but i think im going to end up haveing to relearn how to draw. Curssed allergic reactions to... everything!~